badtrip ako ngayon dahil sa mga sumusunod na kadahilanan:

1. nagttxt kagabi ang crush ko at dahil inis prin ako s kanya tinext ko sha na "lorna just died and went somewhere...it's getting weirder and weirder...when it rains, it pours...full moon, flat world." and he just replied a line from "raindrops & sunshowers" song by smashing pumpkins which is "rain falls on every1, the same old rain...kung cno ka man, musta?" and i never bothered to txt him dahil nonsense naman eh...

2. may usapan kmeng magkikita ng bassist nmen na si carla this afternoon dahil mag-aaudition syang bassist for a side-project band named tether...ang usapan nila nung guitarist na imimeet nya (na kakilala ko) magmimeet cla either 4-5 or 5-6. Pagtawag ko kila Carla ng 4pm, pucha, naliligo plang sya samantalang bihis na ko! Dumating sya sa meeting place nmen ng mga past 5 na...asar talaga dahil may importante pa ko dapat na gawin, at may bibilhin pa akong mga cds sa recto...

3. highlight ng pagka-badtrip ko, pagdatng nmen ng recto kung saan imi-meet ung gitarista, past 7pm na hindi pa sya sumusulpot!so nagload pa ako para lang matxt sha...nagtxt sha na nandun na daw sya sa pandacan kung san magppractice ung banda nya...sa sobrang inis ko, tinawagan ko lang sha para murahin...tangna! may load sha, hindi man lang nya kaagad sinabi na didiretso na pla sha sa band practice nila...nakailang txt ata ako sa kanya...sabi ko sa kanya, gud lak sa banda nila...at mga taga-qc kme, kaya isipin nya kung ano ung ini-exert nming e4t makapunta lng dun sa place na un at kung sa kanya hindi mahalaga ung oras, pwes sken importante dahil bawat segundo ko mahalaga...gusto ko as much as possible hindi nawe-waste ung oras ko sa mga walang kakwenta-kwentang bagay gaya ng paghihintay...panay ang txt nya sken at pag-hingi ng apology pero, bahala na sya...sila naman ang nangangailangan ng bassist at hindi kme...pinapunta-punta nya kme dun para sa wala, pwes, magdusa sya noh!

4. at ang isa pang dahilan bat ako sobrang badtrip ay itong putang-inang tabulas ko, ayaw mag-upload ng usericon...leche. ATTENTION: ABBEY, HELP!

my itinerary:

morning: at museo, watched bayanihan dancers performed at the karapatan hall...

afternoon: >got amused at the aliwan parade in roxas blvd.
>my chat-friend james went to museo & we bought some food at mcdonalds.

>evening: james & i went to kapalua in baywalk to see 3 bands perform in the sundown session of nu107.

>fireworks display. whoa!astig!

>saw another chat friend of mine named squeacky and approached him & he introduced me to some of his friends...there's this cute guy chat-friend of his that i would like to get to know better but unfortunately, i discovered his gf was just around then...sigh...as in sigh-yang...

>watched reggae mistress, tropical depression & pinikpikan performed! whoa! ang gagaling nila. i loosened up and danced and party the night away kahit medyo stiff yung date na kasama ko...

>badtrip!di ko dala ung camera ng fon ko...andami ko sanang nakunang pix...at andun pa naman ung sobrang idol @ crush kong bassist...si louie talan! sobrang cute! let me rephrase that...sobrang gwapo nya! & swerte namen that we were just standing close to the stage...

>later that evening, dumating si abbey! wow!ang ganda ni abbey @ ang sexy! na-starstruck ako! basta, sobrang she looked oh-so feminine last night...i just love that girl coz she's oozing with so much personality!unlike yung ibang mga andun, posers lang talaga, nagme-make-up pa sa tabi...

>biglang nagtext si des, (my co-worker & friend) na they were just at the back of the stage daw so i saw her with her friends (dinah, chie, maui, & someone i dunno).tapos, when pinikpikan had ended their performance, in-approach nila chie si louie talan & asked him if we could take a picture of him...so nagpakuha kme ng picture @ ang saya dahil kasama ako dun...wow!di ko ma-overcome! ang gwapo nya saka ang bait nya! unfortunately, chie couldnt send the pix on my phone so i just downloaded it from her site...

>ang malungkot na part of it all is i was wondering what if i've been there at the gig with my crush & hindi si chat-friend ko...& my crush texted me awhile ago & his message was like, "it's getting weirder & weirder...". yeah.weird.

>kung may band practice kame 2morrow, magkikita kame ni crush ko. & definitely, titigil na naman ang pag-inog ng mundo ko...

whew...my motion sickness striked again...aga-aga badtrip na kaagad ako dahil nahihilo na kaagad ako kanina & ng nakasakay na ako ng fx, pinipigilan ko ang sarili ko na magthrow-up...pumikit na lang ako hoping na kaya ko pang pigilan ang sarili ko na magkalat...

pagbaba ko ng fx sa may kalaw, dali-dali akong pumasok ng jolibee at nag-cr. dun ko na inilabas ang lahat ng sama ng loob ko...as in para akong si stan ng southpark na nagtthrow-up kapag nakikita si maria, na parang si penelope cruz sa pelikulang woman on top (dahil may motion sickness din sha sa film na un.) pagdating ko sa museo, ang swerte ko, di pa ako late pero pagdating ko dun, nagthrow-up na naman ako...halos nilabas ko na ang lahat ng kinain ko..."bakit ba kasi hindi ko magamot 'tong motion sickness na to?"tanong ko sa sarili ko.

nwei, buti after taking lunch, i felt much better...pero sobrang naawa ako sa aking nakita this day...may nagtour na bata sa museo at sya'y dinala sa museo ng ambulansya (courtesy of some PAL employees)...he was in a stretcher at inilipat sa wheelchair...may mga gadgets na nakakabit sa ulo nya & he looks so thin and pale... yun pala, he just got well (daw) from a disease na naapektuhan ang kanyang spinal cord...this is the kid's first time to go out of the hospital & visit another place...so we toured him around the museum, i took pictures of him, and another co-guide of mine had a storytelling session with the 7-year old boy...

the situation just made me realize na yung motion sickness ko early this morning is nothing compared to what this little boy is experiencing...as in sobrang feeling ko nakakahiya naman tong pinag-iinarte ko...masuwerte ako at motion sickness lang ang problema ko with my health, samantalang yung iba, struggling to live in this world...

thank God, i was given another day to live...and hopefully i wouldn't waste a single second of a day by living my life at its fullest...i felt as if this life is like a long road to travel...i'm just this ordinary pedestrian crossing the street...life is too short to be spent on worries...

carpe diem.

kanina, nagmeeting ang mga staff ng museo @ syempre pa, kasama ako dun...boring ng day 'cept for andito ako ngayon sa computer shop with our bassist carla para isoli sken ung book ng ka-workmate ko na dati kong crush pero hindi na ngayon...

yung crush ko na yon na kaworkmate ko, sobrang patay na patay ako dun dati. yun nga lang, may gf na sha of 4 years ata...& definitely, di ganon kaganda gf nya (haehae, ang bitter eh noh?). tapos, 1 araw, nagising nalng ako na hindi ko na pala sya luv...or posibleng hindi ko naman pla tlga sha luv, at naamuse lang ako sa kanya...ang hirap kasi sken, i get confused with love and amusement...pag hindi ko kapareho ng wavelengths, turn-off na kaagad ako...sana gaya nalng din ako ng magnets kc with magnets, opposites attract & like poles repel...for me kc, i'll have a hard time understanding someone who doesn't dig what i dig like radical clothing & rock music & bizaare ideas...

yung mga guys naman kc na nagugustuhan ko, either taken na, pari, or gay sila...while yung mga guys na nakaka-date ko at pwede ko namang i-try na magkaron ng relationship with them, eh hindi ko gaano madama...sabi nga, kung sino ang ayaw mo, yun pa ang may gusto syo. @ yung gusto mo, ayaw naman syo...mahirap naman kasing ipilit ang mga bagay-bagay dahil ang resulta nun, ay magiging panget ang kalalabasan...